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Life is busy and Gnarls Barkley is fucking amazing. That is all nothing else to report.
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Yeah I met Adam Sessler and Morgan Webb today you can all envy me now.
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Well things are still kinda messy but not as much.
I'm slowly VERY slowly getting over everything. I think soon as Lauren moves out and gets her own place and is finally away from me things will get better. I dont know what she plans to do with her life, but she knows that I will always be only a phone call away no matter where in the world I am. I will never be able to take back all the mean and hurtful things I said to her. I can and WILL always regret what i said I dont know what got into me jealousy mostly and stupidity. As time goes on I can hopefully get over her and we can cleanse all the bad blood between us that I caused. Its ALWAYS gonna be hard to get over her especially when she's seeing other guys. Just so everyone knows I lost her a long time ago due to my own actions. She cant be blamed for any of this that I brought upon myself. I will always Love her. I'm changing not for her but for myself. I cant live my life the way I have been, if I continue the lifestyle that I have been living I will die alone. That is something I do not want at all.
I will say that I am blessed to have such great friends that have been there for me in my time of need. And am cursed to forever know that I lost the best thing in my life.
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Saturday, March 4th, 2006
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I fucking HATE 2006 so far.
Way to go Ozark crew for all having relationship end this week!
Single and hating it.
Yours truely.
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Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
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I'm currently sitting in limbo. I cant seem to concentrate on anything really. I just know that I'm a huge fuck up and will live everyday in regret.
I'm going to change I have to its just not right for me to be the type of person I am that blows up at people and says the meanest most hurtful things especially when they should be the most important person and are the most important person in my world.
Now that things have turned to ruin I have to decide on what I'm going to do next. My lease is up in i believe July and i have a choice of either staying here in atlanta or just dissappearing which is something i do best. I'd have to job and leave some great folks but everyone has to eventually leave. I'll be leaving the most important person in my life to this city that she's grown to love so much. It'll be good for her to get out on her own I keep telling myself, but the greater half never wants to see her leave. I most likely will stay though but will never be sure since I'm running nothing but emotion and irrational thought.
They say "it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all" right? But they dont tell you is the pain is so bad that you wish you were dead.
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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
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My ability to push people away never stops to amaze me untill they're gone and I cant do anything about it.
Yours truely is a huge fuck up.
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Monday, January 30th, 2006
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its 2am and i'm having some odd alleric reaction? My body is itchy and feels like its on fire. Does this make sense? I've ran all over looking for benadril but we have none. So i just took a cloth and soaked it in freezing water and wiped my body down with it. I feel better now.
I'm really dizzy and feel like i'm high as shit but itchy at the same time hahaha god damn i have to be at work in a few hours. this sucks.
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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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Your results:
You are Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)| Malcolm Reynolds (Captain) |
| 70% | | Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command) |
| 55% | | Wash (Ship Pilot) |
| 45% | | Jayne Cobb (Mercenary) |
| 40% | | Derrial Book (Shepherd) |
| 35% | | Dr. Simon Tam (Ship Medic) |
| 30% | | Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic) |
| 25% | | River (Stowaway) |
| 25% | | A Reaver (Cannibal) |
| 25% | | Alliance |
| 20% | | Inara Serra (Companion) |
| 15% |
| Honest and a defender of the innocent.
You sometimes make mistakes in judgment
but you are generally good and
would protect your crew from harm.
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Click here to take the Serenity Firefly Personality Test
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Thursday, December 29th, 2005
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Tiger died yesterday morning and I can barely think about anything that doesnt include memories of him. We got him when I was 13 and living in Pensacola. Our first ride home with him he threw up on me and my brother mike. He was DEFINATELY my most favorite pet ever. He was my best friend, we had moved so much that my only real friend was him and he will always be missed. I loved that crazy old dog.
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Monday, December 26th, 2005
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I totally fucked up my back moving a washer and dryer into our house by myself. On one note i didnt know i was this strong on another I'm a fucking idiot for not trying to get someone to help me move them. I have work in the morning and am starting to not want to go due to the fact that I can barely move at all.
Oh and my xmas was awesome best christmas in a LOOOOOONG time by far.
Sorry i didnt get to see josh or his dad this xmas and didnt spend more time chillin with Toeknee since he was in town but I was actually trying to spend time with my family other than just playing video games with the door to my room closed.
Oh yeah my mom said she loved me on her own. She's NEVER done that as far back as I can remember. She's only really said it in response to when i say it to her. A very awesome xmas indeed.
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Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
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I got a fucking spitune(sp?) Fuck secret santa bizness next time i'm just taking what i want!
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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
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yeah so i guess i'll finally update this for anyone that actually gives two shits about whats going on in my life.
Well needless to say I work over at gametap. I guess you can say its a spin off of Turner Studios. All the people I work with are amazingly awesome in every sense. The job keeps me fairly busy I think I've become kind of a workaholic though. I'll burn through a shit ton of things to do and people will scream " Jesus christ James!" All I really say is " umm...sorry?" Thing that sucks is that I know a lot of the people will be leaving and for as antisocial as you all know me to be this saddens me somewhat. I hate getting use to new people.
Right now I'm trying to figure out what to get my family and Laurens family gifts for Xmas I HATE trying to figure these things out. I have to wait for my bank up here to get some letter that says I paid off all the money I owed them since I'm horrible about paying shit like that off hah. Soon as they get it I'll be able to actually get my check cashed from work! Then I can blow all of that money on gifts.
I am going home on the 23rd - i think the 20somthing i keep forgetting.
Anyways I'm off hope you are all well.
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Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
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The holiday season really makes me want to smash peoples fucking skulls in! The holiday spirit is just everyone being a total asshole to each other.
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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
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I need everyones email addy so I can add you on to xfire I had to get a whole new profile cause i suck at remembering all my user names.
radiogrunt@hotmail.com
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) turningback's Halloween party:
__briseis dressed as Warren G. Harding.
anuptaphobia dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Vulgar Hunter.
blondewire gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as Optimus Prime.
bloodwillspill dressed as the love child of Bill Gates and Janeane Garofalo, and it suited them all too well.
bloodymarysc2c dressed as a 1990's grunge child.
blowinupthespot didn't dress up, spoilsport.
butterthisfetus dressed as a moose.
chaffmoney dressed as a fork, and it suited them disturbingly well.
couragefalls dressed as a zombie.
crazychic0787 dressed as Adam Sandler riding a rat.
fifthmorn dressed as a Level 12 thief.
fuckwhatyaheard dressed as a diplomat from Saint Pierre and Miquelon.
holli_bo_bolli didn't dress up, spoilsport.
impaledfetuses dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Gwen, though it looked more like the Archbishop of Ciclolog.
indiestarfire dressed as Paul Harvey.
meetmeoutside dressed as a gross application.
miseryasylum dressed as the Duke of St. Otterstad.
ohhsohaute dressed as a Care Bear.
paladine_eva dressed as a bear.
poisongurl dressed as a honey, though it looked more like a bottle of Stigbabvar.
queendork dressed as Michael Jackson.
radford__ forgot to put on clothes!
reddheaded dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Booger Toadfanny".
rivercity forgot to put on clothes!
shahnonanon didn't dress up, spoilsport.
shakedemhaters dressed as a Blue Screen of Death.
sickxsadxlonely dressed as Dwight Eisenhower.
songbirdslament dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
sookieyum didn't dress up, spoilsport.
spankmedaddy dressed as Gwyneth Paltrow's aunt.
syfagonnaherpes dressed as the Continuous Power Ranger.
thebestbob dressed as Cmdr. Riker from "Star Trek".
thegloaming dressed as a disappearance.
thesedevilsweep dressed as a pitcher for the Reds.
thorns_in_roses dressed as your mother.
trendiposr dressed as a new superhero: Stone Girl.
turningback dressed as the Duke of Ziahuncit.
victimofvanity dressed as the Governor of Ohio.
white_lies dressed as Robin Williams.
whoawhoawhoa dressed as a PACF Retail employee.
xmikexmurderx dressed as Winona Ryder.
Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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If today and yesterday's weather are an indication of the winter to come, I'm REALLY not looking forward to winter.
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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So after an extremely long time I picked up myguitar again and starting trying to reteach myself. I must say that so far I think I play better than I ever did before. After like 4 hours of non stop playing it feels like my fingers are about to fall off. Working up callouses again is painful as well. I bought new strings and guitar picks but I've yet to put the new strings on yet cause I HATE restringing. Along with working out lately my body is extremely sore. I dont know why I'm punishing myself this much lately with all this working out and shit. I'm just really bored.
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Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
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So far my morning has been interesting. Some crack head came up to the window at Javaology(laurens coffee shop) and started taunting her, not noticing me on the side. Soon as I walk out in front of him he stops taunting her and mummbling shit that I dont think anyone could understand. I tell him that we're not open and that he should walk away. Next thing I know he's trying to talk shit to me. Now the door is locked mind you and he's talking shit. I pull out my phone to threaten that I was about to call the cops then he makes a I dont care guesture and starts talking more shit to me. At this point I'm just like fuck this. So I start to unlock the door, soon as I start doing so he starts walking off. I dont let him off this easy as many of you know I'm kind of a hot head. I walk up to him and ask him if he's got a problem. I really wasnt going to say shit at first, so I'm actually able to control my rage to a point. Then he starts saying mummbling shit about his gold and that Lauren was trying to take it. I tell him to get his crack head ass outa here before I snap him like a slim jim. He starts walking off even faster and yeah I keep following. He turns around and starts wiggling his fingers at me like he's trying to cast a spell and says he knows voodoo I just laugh. Then he starts making this gun gesture and pointing at me saying he'd going to shoot me. I just start yelling at this point to tell him to show me his gun I REALLY wanted to just let the blood flow at this point, but since I promised Lauren I'd try to control myself better I didnt. I'll admit I REALLY LIKE hurting people especially those that have it coming to them. I tell him he better keep walking then he says he's going to the crack house. Yeah CRACK HOUSE, I just let him walk off and he was still doing the shooting gesture at me while I laughed and watched him walk off. So be proud of me that I was able to control myself for once. I always seem to get threatened to get shot.
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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contemplative.
moody.